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何がちがう?

気持ち悪い.来年はここで仕事していないし,早ければ途中でやめることになるだろうと感じる.
なんでだろう?

ボスと合わない.

ボスがリーダー的でない.
基本的に,自分の思い通りにひとを動かそうとする.そして,自分の思惑外にいいことがあっても,認めることがない.がんばることを認めない.
ハナから,がんばることを否定された.頭使うな,という.やる気は日々下がっていく.

俺が関わっていた症例,診療所を変えたいから紹介状を書いてくれと連絡があった.
他,副作用があってつらい,と外来に来た人がいた.
薬には副作用があるものだけれど,理解できない副作用だから,否定されてしまう.どんな薬もずれるもの,だと思うし,実際ボスもそのようなミスをしている.カルテを読め,そうすれば処方を変えれるはずがない,といいつつ,ボスにとっては初回診察の患者の薬をかえて,体調が悪くなった症例がある.
自分のことは棚に上げて他人を否定する.
それは,医者の部下に限ったことではない.ほかの従業員や,ほかの施設の医者もそう.


ここで働いて,得るものがあればいいと思う.しかし,ケア学の範囲で学ぶことはあっても,治療学で学ぶことを感じない.圧倒されるくらいの医学・治療学があれば従うのだろうな.

医者病,という感じもある.
従わせるヒエラルキーの上にいて,周りは従うのが当然.うまくいかないのは従わないから.
導けないのは自分の能力不足,という感じない.


あと,ほかの人の悪口を言う.きっと,違う場所では俺の悪口言っているんだろうな,と感じる.
そこで心を開くつもりにはなれない.

ひとを育てること・そのひとの未来を変えることに興味は無く,自分の行為を見せることが好き.どのように育てるのか,どのように「伸ばしたい」のか,ボスの口から聞いたことがない.


思い通りに動く人材.それが大切.今の組織はそんな感じ.
そのような組織に,未来はない.


「専門医はよくなった症例を大本営発表する」 そうだろう.
今後この施設でがんばって,よくなった症例がいても,耳を貸してもらえることはないだろう.がんばっても,無意味.


リーダーとは何だろう?
文字通り,導く存在だろう.導かれたい,と思うところに人は集まる.
きっとうちのボスは,うまくいかないことはすべて部下のせいにしながらやっていくのだろう.精神衛生上,それはすてきなことだろう.


今後自分がとるべき方針はなんだろう?
治療しないこと.それはない.
ほんとうにぎりぎりのひとでなければ動かないこと? でも,それじゃ遅いんだよな...


今日は,東京に行けば活躍できるだろう,と言われた.東京にかえれ,と暗にほのめかしているのだろう.まあ,そうしよう.
働いていて,学んでいて,とてもつまらない.

夜,お疲れ様と声をかけて,返事がなかったあの日,ごっそりいろいろ飛んでいったかな.

お互い,信頼度が日々落ちていることを自覚している.未来はないだろうな.

とにかく,自分の枠内におさまれ.とのこと.
従わなければここでは未来はないが,従っていれば俺の未来はないだろうな.

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